The Grass is always greener on the other side.. 040507

"The grass is always greener on the other side"

Was reading the mail leonard send to me when he left the army or the office to be exact. Kind of miss him now. Is like yesterday when all of them leave the office. Alvin, WK, Ben, Gerard, Jordan, Leonard - REally miss all of them. The days when we play DOGA (DOTA LA- all of them should know what i mean) and the days when we played doga and leo grumbling about us playing, the day when we went to KL for a office retreat, and the day we went for breakfast and lunch together. You can feel the closest in the office last time. Now, is a totally different thing already. Hanqin busying looking at his stock, seetoh busying with him work that never seems to end, joseph still as playful, shaun forever blur blur haha and lastly not to mention the marvellous desmond who is always so persistent. Even now, thana seems to be too busy with his new GirlFriend...Nowaday, shuan seems to be the only one who play dota with me in office. AAAAAHHHhhhh.. Feel like shouting now. Feel like listening to some loud music and get out of life. Now, i understand why sometime "the girl" likes to be in her own world. Even my ex likes to be in her own world (but i bring her out). All this is because life is far to painful to be in. I guess i am a confused person. Never feel so confused in my life. Sometime i am pondering why God always take away those people i am close with.

Kenny - My ultimate best friend - Who is in Australia now studying
Alvin, wk, ben, gerard, jordan - All my good friend from the army
Wong, peng siong, johnny (my bathing partner), ervin, dominic - can't forget last time sia- damn fun
the girl - Been avoiding her eventhough i like her.
My ex - i believe i still miss her but the moment i remember the way she hurted me, i hate her.

Anyway, next week is suppose to be my ord (070507) but guess what, i be extending for 3 months till 100807 (1 day after national day 07).

Thinking back on my army days. The days in bmt, the days in ocs, the days in engineer CTW and the days in show committee. I believe BMT is the one that gave me most of the memories to take back if i leave the army (was thinking of signing on and get a SAS). PLATOON one section 4, my bmt's life was full of fun people haha.... Peng siong - the veggie(he was damn fit last time lo haha), wong - one of the funniesst person in the section, never failed to bring the section to laughter and the one that always bath the lastest in the section haha, johnny, my ultimate bathing partner - we always share the bathing thing together because the bathing area is always full of people, Dominic - my buddy - the most garang soldier i ever know, he is the one that helped me the most i guess, never failed to cover my butt when i covered his haha.... Koon Chian(KC), the ultimate wenhan buddy (i think he thinks wenhan is god hahaha). and wenhan - our platoon second best so you can imagine la.a AAGHAGAGGHAAAAaaaa feel like shouting again... Really miss those days.

I guess i have left too much things in me and my brain. I can feel the weight in me now. hai. Actually to tell you(blog), i really hoped to find someone who can listen to all my problems but hard la, even my gf i don't say everything. hahaa... i guess i just want to care for someone. Don't know what i am talking le.. tired