There is no place i rather be. 080507

Was quite a bored day today... go to work, go off work haha... that all. then after work went to RK prata with thana and manu, ate a tissue prata, talk some cocks and went back home. Soon after reaching home, i left the house again and went for a jog around serangoon garden.. you might think is a boring lifestyle right haa!!! ya i also think it is. (not going to deny it!!! haha)

Was talking to Mummy Li min the other day, she seems so stress out with her school work. So ke lian. Good luck for your work k!!! Hee let me introduce to you all my mummy li min , i know her from NYJC, a nice sweet skinny girl from my ex ex gf class - good friend of hers i suppose haha.... (maybe i will placed her photos here also soon haa - but something is wrong with my computer at home), it was from my ex ex that i get to know her. that all for the introduction. LI MIN ya, must eat more k.. you too skinny le la.

O O... junlong is back today from his training in taiwan haha.. 3 weeks sia and guess what, he didn't lose any weight haha... he will killed me for announcing this for him haa. woo, so long le.. 3 weeks le.. hahaa... *Somehow i think i miss her again... Anyway, long is really my best jogging buddy sia... run to orchard with him once and meet bud and jana, so qiao. Anyway long, if you are reading this, be prepared to run a further distance next time k. Is time to run to DOVER, Singapore polytechnic!!!

O O O.... Let me introduce to you another girl... my da da jie.. i know her from Army Half marathon and she is the publicity OIC haa, Guess what is my job - the army side oic for them haha - something like that la. My job is to bring them all over the running route and be the army personnel to talk to people from the army side for them etc etc. lynda jie jie is one of the most extrovert girl i know la.. Super friendly also lo - that why she is my da jie ma. hee... Anyway, i was talking to her yesterday, and we chatted quite a bit, about shouldn't give wrong signal to a guy or vice versa to a girl if you don't like the person or even treat the person like friend or close friend. Got to know her better sia. hahaha.... Her life is actually quite interesting, got to travel so many places and guess what, she is going to Koh Samui TOMORROW. hai... everyone going holiday but i am still here in singapore. hai.

ORD LO....

Is ORD LO.... collected my PINK IC today haha... went round the whole camp to look for everyone to sign my clearance form, namely CPT EDWIN, CPT ONG, CPT TOH, STORES IC, WARRANT TANG, WARRANT FROM LOG BRANCH etc etc.. hahaha CPL Bryan really helped me a lot to locate all of them..THANK BRYAN.. Was a hectic day running here and there to look for everyone. STUPID Procedures.. But never mind le la.. I got my pink IC le and am officially NSMEN. hee.. In other word civilian. (*Sob Sob - i signed for volunteerily extension for 3 months..). O o, my ORD date accidently fall on Warrant Tang's birthday haha... Cool right hee.. Is like quite long ago since i last saw my PINKY IC..... 1 years 10 months back. Really miss the time i am in BMT.

Today 050707, i meet my BMT Section mates, for the first time in history hahaha, all of them actually fall in thou around 3 of them are of exceptionally late with vaild reasons (they are namely frankie, kee jin and jin xiang haa). Really have a nice chat with my bathing buddy johnny today hee... Cannot take it la. he really thinks like me. We are really alike in thinking... *laugh We went to marina south to have our ord bbq dinner. Suppose to have our dinner at a Japanese resturant in marina square, but the resturant is nowhere to be found after much recce from 7 early birds hee. Soon after our dinner, we went for some kopi or desserts at HK cafe Xin wang in marina square - So nice!!! Guess what, this is where frankie came - and guess what HE IS IN UNIFORM....Really miss all of them i guess. is like 1 year 7 months since i last saw all of them . Everyone actually turned out for this special date of our life. Dominic was saying that we should meet one year once and the next date to meet is 1 year from now 070508. *Everyone must remember ya. Don't forget. haaa. We talk a lot during the dinner, talk about the funny jokes that happened during the BMT life - how johnny and i was punished by SGT ALVIS for talking cock and sitting down during squat position, how wei lun should 1 in malay when he is supposes to say it in english when SGT ask him to count down and how the rests continue with malay... Is totally fun, really miss the life and love the life in ARMY BMT. haaa. ( will posted some pictures soon hee)

We went home about 11.50 and i waited for 156 for like 40 minutes. thought there is no more bus so i got into a taxi and boom boom boom off home hee. When i was waiting the taxi. I suddenly feel lonely again. not sure why - was listening to the song named "Don't write me off just yet" by hugh grant.... Really so nice. Somehow i guess i really miss the girl. I was trying to change the lyrics of the songs to my context. But somehow i think i am not good enough to change it.. The lyrics is really very nice..

It's never been easy for me
To find words to go along with a melody
But this time there's actually something on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines
Since I met you my whole life has changed
It's not just my furniture you've re-arranged
I was living in the pastBut somehow you've brought me back
and I haven't felt like this since before Frankie said relax
and now I know based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I'm asking you is
Don't write me off just yet

Is 1.30 am le... Good nite everyone

God doesn't need you to win, he just need you to try.

Is 2 days since i last blogged. WEnt clubbing with rachel buddy and buddy 1 (sherin) at St James Power House. hee.. Stupid me, forget that there is a bag deposit area beside the toilet. sad sad *sob sob. If not we will be able to unwind and dance like crazy le. sad sad. In any case, it is my first time that i meet sherin. She looked bit stunned when i first say hi to her when we are outside st james hahaha.. Nice girl i will say and like rachel, they loved to take picture of themselves hahaa. They should have taken more than 50 pictures of themselves that day.... We went bellini, sit there for 2 hours and talk cock - topic include everything under the moon - from teacher to nus girl to kenneth to the china girl and guy who is busy taking photo there haha. I stayed quite quiet throughout thou, maybe because i am not used to telling people about my problem the first time i meet them haa.. Sorry Sherin hee... The other half of the time we were waiting around the building and appreciating the structure..(Miss rachel will understand what i mean haa). All this happened on Friday evening hee.

Now, on Saturday, was quite a busy day.. DOING VOLUNTEER WORKs for my uncle, grandmother and joseph.. my grandmother came to my house wake me up early in the morning to help her do some artwork for her banner(her newly western food store at cck - go visit if any of you have time k- open next saturday).. hhaa(I hate graphic). Soon later, my uncle came with another artwork for his mini market haha.... Then AGain, JOSEPH/MANU came with his lappy so that i can fixed it for him. DAMN angry all treated me like free labour haha. Hai... sad. However, i was left alone the whole day doing all those volunteer stuff. hee. Hopefully they will appreciate what i do sia.

-SOmehting interesting. hee... Went swimming in the afternoon... and saw a post card that all my friend will tell me i guess. Guess what it wrote on the postcard. hahaha

IF YOU're BORED, IT's Not OUR FAULT... (will load pictures of it haha)

HOW INSPIRATIONAL!!!!! hhaha to my surprise, serangoon stadium is up and running again. people are running on the tracks le.. thought is will take a year or so for the track to be renovate. haa.

Sunday Morning - Was talking to theresa..and guess what - SHE IS gg to RENDANG.. so nice.. how i wish i can go also. hai. sad sad. I think i will go after national day ba.. Cool..

Why i wake up so early ? hai. irritated by my uncle's persistent in calling haha and also maybe because i have not finish the stuff he asked me to do ... Is suppose to be a sunday.. relax day for me. hai.. been working saturday sunday.. sad sad... Maybe feel so tired and bored because i never enjoyed doing graphic.. Love it more if is programming hee. Went serangoon garden in the afternoon with joseph and meet theresa to pass her the SONGS disc.. haha... Going to miss theresa for 4 days hahaa... No one to entertain me le haha..

WAs talking to eileen - my long lost friend from SAJC haha...... heee. so long never talk to her, really miss her.. it was like 5-6 years back since i talk to her on the phone... nice feeling.. we talk a lot today and then i realised, she also like MUSIC and LYRIC like i do.. hee. so sweet.. cannot forget the songs "way back into love", is like replaying over my head for 1 months. Have a really nice chat with eileen today. She is going to graduate from nus soon le, so nice. How i wished i can graduate from uni with a blink of my eye.

Learnt another word today hee...

Ad nauseam - repeatly and to an annoying degree.......

The Grass is always greener on the other side.. 040507

"The grass is always greener on the other side"

Was reading the mail leonard send to me when he left the army or the office to be exact. Kind of miss him now. Is like yesterday when all of them leave the office. Alvin, WK, Ben, Gerard, Jordan, Leonard - REally miss all of them. The days when we play DOGA (DOTA LA- all of them should know what i mean) and the days when we played doga and leo grumbling about us playing, the day when we went to KL for a office retreat, and the day we went for breakfast and lunch together. You can feel the closest in the office last time. Now, is a totally different thing already. Hanqin busying looking at his stock, seetoh busying with him work that never seems to end, joseph still as playful, shaun forever blur blur haha and lastly not to mention the marvellous desmond who is always so persistent. Even now, thana seems to be too busy with his new GirlFriend...Nowaday, shuan seems to be the only one who play dota with me in office. AAAAAHHHhhhh.. Feel like shouting now. Feel like listening to some loud music and get out of life. Now, i understand why sometime "the girl" likes to be in her own world. Even my ex likes to be in her own world (but i bring her out). All this is because life is far to painful to be in. I guess i am a confused person. Never feel so confused in my life. Sometime i am pondering why God always take away those people i am close with.

Kenny - My ultimate best friend - Who is in Australia now studying
Alvin, wk, ben, gerard, jordan - All my good friend from the army
Wong, peng siong, johnny (my bathing partner), ervin, dominic - can't forget last time sia- damn fun
the girl - Been avoiding her eventhough i like her.
My ex - i believe i still miss her but the moment i remember the way she hurted me, i hate her.

Anyway, next week is suppose to be my ord (070507) but guess what, i be extending for 3 months till 100807 (1 day after national day 07).

Thinking back on my army days. The days in bmt, the days in ocs, the days in engineer CTW and the days in show committee. I believe BMT is the one that gave me most of the memories to take back if i leave the army (was thinking of signing on and get a SAS). PLATOON one section 4, my bmt's life was full of fun people haha.... Peng siong - the veggie(he was damn fit last time lo haha), wong - one of the funniesst person in the section, never failed to bring the section to laughter and the one that always bath the lastest in the section haha, johnny, my ultimate bathing partner - we always share the bathing thing together because the bathing area is always full of people, Dominic - my buddy - the most garang soldier i ever know, he is the one that helped me the most i guess, never failed to cover my butt when i covered his haha.... Koon Chian(KC), the ultimate wenhan buddy (i think he thinks wenhan is god hahaha). and wenhan - our platoon second best so you can imagine la.a AAGHAGAGGHAAAAaaaa feel like shouting again... Really miss those days.

I guess i have left too much things in me and my brain. I can feel the weight in me now. hai. Actually to tell you(blog), i really hoped to find someone who can listen to all my problems but hard la, even my gf i don't say everything. hahaa... i guess i just want to care for someone. Don't know what i am talking le.. tired

5 stars Arising !!!

Good day to everyone haha.. Guess where am i writing this blog. OFFICE.. is 7.30pm already and i am still in office. Sad life right.. anyway was kind of a busy day, went to Singapore Press Holding and Mediacorp for media dialogue (actually just sit there la haa). Comdr was the one that present the presentation. All i have to do is to make sure the video that i have done WORKED. haha.. The first session went haywire thou, CPT Tay went ALT TABBING out and click the video which screwed the session up . Comdr jokingly AWARDED him with 2 EXTraS.. Damn funny when you see the comdr say that. Soon later after the mediacorp session went well, comdr told him "good job CPT TAY ahha... your 2 extra cancelled haaa".. Damn funny la can !!!

Anyway, i was with miss wong the whole day. She treated me to eat the whole day haha.. making me damn fat now..Thought CPT Tay will treated us today but in the end we went dutch. then later around 4pm, we went for some prawn noodle. (initially i just went there to eat Goreng Pisang but miss wong ordered the whole type of prawn noodle that she want so ended i have to sacifice to eat up the noodle). * FULL ...

It is around 5pm when we reached back camp. Guess what, saw boss and he asked me how is it? haha... and to my surprise, comdr had already tell him what happened haa.. and to my surprise again, he thanked me for doing the flash for him when he left for another meeting. (Quite surprise when he thanked me thou, coz he seldom thanks anyone). *Bad ME

RanCorousness... 03052007

Nothing much really happened today.. was reading a blog from someone i do not know. it wrote "gained your trust and came into your world but i left jus as abruptly and hurt you where you felt the safest".. I feel so sad to look at this message from someone to someone (the English is so good). It was someone's blog that i felt love, sweetness, hatred, lies and bitterness. I really hope to be love by someone again and so i can share everything with that special someone. (but somehow, i stopped looking or rather choose to stay single - scared the hurt and pain that i have to go through again!!!).

Is a long time since i last felt love, even family love is sometime i guess i do not have. I never feel happy, was just forcing a smile on my face everyday. (that how i survive). Working working and working is what i do to forget the pain sometime. I guess somehow i need peace, somehow i need some quietness. (that is also why i choose to stay at border nowadays to read any novel that interest me).

Today was the 4th Show Commitee meeting and finally the flash video that i have done is cleared by boss and comdr. Feel quite happy thou. but tomorrow meeting should be a long one. A long long meeting. After the meeting, i went off with MANU for some supper at RP - PRATA along yio chu kang road ( strange - why ain't we eating PRATA off jalan kayu road which is SUPER near our camp haha). Soon after i reach home around 11pm, i was talking to rachel, meiyan and miss wong on msn then went for jog and came back around 12 midnight.. HEalthy lifestyle !!! I want a hug now? anyone? hai ...

Learnt 1 new word today -

RAncourousness - Quality of state of feeling bitter

This words was learn when me and thana feel too bored to listen to what we should listen.. i.e. Play a fool during the meeting la SIMPLE haha.. Thana remember ya - don't stick on to your gf too much ya.. if not the consequences will be drastic in the future. Forget to intro. Thana is one of my best friend from the army, an officer from infantry and the security officer of our camp. But now, i am higher rank than him hahahah.... like manu always say "KNOCK IT DOWN" haa.. sorry sorry.. guess i am too tired le.. gg to sleep now le.. nite everyone.

LAST MINUTE...01 MAY 2007

Is a BoMBING LAME day today (Meiyan knows what is this haha)!!! so hilarious!!! was out with meiyan the whole day today, meet her at vivo and we talk quite a bit. initial plan was to LAI KOPI but ended up shopping. Walk up and down vivo then went to ORCHARD and have dinner at swensen.

ULTIMATE: Was telling meiyan that we should all last minute do our work. Why!! Because it takes only one minute to do it!!!!

ACtually we bought nothing today. just chit chatting away when we window shop haha. We will having our dinner at orchard swensen today. Guess what, i was showing meiyan how to tie a knot on the cherry stalk in our mouth hee.. nothing better to do.. hahah Unforunately i can't do it in such a short time i guess.

Meiyan was telling me about the "GIRL" that i once or still liked. She say she is a strange, weird and a stubborn person who make use of people(only when she needs them she will call them). In addition not many people like her during JC days, always alone etc. Even theresa don't really like her too i guess. (soon after i reach home, am talking to amy on msn - and she asks me to stay away from her too) - STRANGE day ( guess i should really stay away from her - which i am already doing so)

Soon after we ate, we went to heeren to continue our shopping, to paragon then to CK TANG. hahah... long day.. We officially end our shopping journey at CK Tang.. haha... Great day today.